Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. We sure had fun. We got so many great gifts and gave so many great gifts, I want to share them all with you. But first.....need to make an announcement.....
BIG changes are about to take place. On my blog and *
(*in real life)
A long time ago --- pre kids, before I was even married and before I even knew what a blog was --- I used to tell people something. I didn't tell strangers. They would have
thought I was crazy. I mostly told family members and good friends. It was no surprise to them anyway. They were safe. They knew I wanted 6 kids. That's right. 3 girls. 3 boys. Twins in the middle. They also knew I was strong willed and ambitious. They knew I marched to the beat of my own drum. I didn't care what anyone thought. If Kat and/or Meredith are reading this -- do you remember the sleepover at Deana's when y'all told me I was like a "little mother", like a "little Deana" and I locked myself in the bathroom for 2 hours while you and Deana tried to get me to come out. Little did I know that was the biggest compliment of my life! I'm getting off track.....
Back to what I told my family and close friends. This was usually after some reaction to my grand statement of wanting 6 children. I would say....
"Oh yes! Big families are so much fun!
(I was an expert, you know, since I had hung out at the Foley's and Purdy's a time or two. Plus, my parents were Catholic and both came from families with lots of kids)
......I want their to never be a dull moment...always lots going on....always lots of laughter. I want to always be active and I want tons of activities to go to all the time. I want to always be very involved in all their lives. I would get great joy out of knowing that I helped make that and I was a part of that big difference all my family members were making. And I would love to be in charge of something like that! Something so grand as a BIG family!
(and here's the kicker)
"I just want there to be constant chaos all the time
. I think that's so much fun!"
We just need to stop right here. Number 1, I was
crazy. Young, crazy and in love....with life. Also, I think we need to talk about the fact that my life gives new meaning to the phrase Be careful what you wish for
! We may not have lots of kids (yet), but never a dull moment? Check! Always lots going on? Check! Lots of laughter? Check! Always active and lots of activities going on? Check, check! Constant chaos? CHECK!
Do you remember me telling you that I was planning on getting a professional blog design and iBlog was possibly getting a new name? Well, it's happening and at just the perfect time. First I'll tell you about the new blog changes and then I'll fill you in on some life changes that all sort-of make it fit together at the right time.
iBlog will be a year old on February 12, 2011 and what better time for the big reveal of the new professionally designed look! So, on or around February 12th I'll have my new blog design hopefully! The design will be in the works soon! (there were lots of others a head of me). I'm SUPER excited about this. I'm like a kid at Christmas and can't wait to see what Carolyn
comes up with for my new look!
As for the name....iBlog will become Constant in Chaos
. It fits perfect. If you know me, you know why it fits perfect, but by the end of this blog post everyone will understand fully just what the new title means to me. When I started iBlog, I had no idea what direction it would take. I just knew I wanted to blog. It has sort-of become a place where I blog about where life and God are taking us and our new business venture. It amazes me more than anything when I think about how God has worked in our lives since moving here and starting this blog. Through all the changes, HE has remained constant. HE above has been my Constant among all the chaos. It just fits perfectly. Trust me.
Back at the home stead......things are changing. This Christmas we had to endure something hard again. John Taylor lost his job a couple of weeks before Christmas. If you've been reading my blog for a while then you know that JT lost his job last Christmas and was rehired by the same company shortly after he got laid off. During the time he was laid off, I helped him start his own business. We have been so blessed in all areas, even if that sounds ironic. God had a plan for us. Things are starting to make sense.....
We have decided to move back into our house in Birmingham and grow John Taylor's business there. He is also currently looking for a job there, too. Although he loves building and is making money at it, we still need benefits since I'm a stay-at-home-mom. Please keep his job search and our move in your prayers.
The last few weeks have been hard. One would think we could say been there, done that
and it would make it easier. It wasn't. It was Christmas. We have two small kids who we wanted to have a good Christmas. We have two house notes. I'm a stay-at-home-mom. We still haven't recovered from last year. It's hard.
I'm trying very hard to rest in HIM, put my trust in HIM, let HIM lead and guide me. I've spent a lot of time in prayer lately and I've shed a lot of tears. Don't get me wrong, I've yelled a lot, stomped a lot, asked why a lot, cussed a lot, screamed out a lot and blamed a lot. But, I've learned a lot, too. God isn't through with us yet and He has worked in us tremendously the past two years. Our marriage has gone into a valley due to all the stressed we've endured, but I try not to focus on that and focus on the fact that we love each other, we have each other, we're both healthy and we realize the proper steps we need to take in order to not let the great thing we have together slip away. I'm proud of John Taylor and I'm proud to be his wife.
There have been many important decisions to make since JT lost his job that would effect us and effect our family. I took the advice of a friend and just prayed to God through the whole process that He would close any doors that weren't of His will and His plan. That's so much easier than worrying and trying to control things myself (although I did a little of that, too...wink wink).
I have also learned that God never changes. I change. Sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. I see a pattern now. When I'm far from God (stop praying, stop reading my Bible), things are just a mess and I seem to cry a lot more. Insecurity sets in, too. When I have a close relationship with God, even in the midst of pain, I'm able to handle things better and handle my earthly life. God does not change. He is my Constant.
My chaotic life may change and it's chaos may shake me, but if I cling to Him, His strength will sustain me.
Psalm 33:11 "The Lord's plans stand firm forever; His intentions can never be shaken."
Ephesians 2:10 "We are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things He planned for us long ago"
I found this on a website and wanted to share:
"God's unchanging commitment guarantees everlasting security. If you have trusted in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, you can be assured of eternal life. God is eternally committed to your redemption, your spiritual growth, and your eternal destiny. God's commitment to you is as strong as He is eternally constant. The storms of life are continually changing, but God remains the same. He is consistent and reliable. He is your anchor. You can count on God because He never changes."
Hebrews 13:8 "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever"
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